erm..2day feeling much better le =]]
thanks baby! maybe cos later can c u lor..haha
last 2 days were like damn jia lat lor >.<
u asked me wat make me feel so moody..
i think cos i miss u den nvr receive ur sms..nvr c u on9..
nvr c ur tag den e kids so notti lor..
den e witch keeps nagging ...everything added up made me
feel so emo ):

haiz...i'm really sick of my life ):
maybe i nid 2 go wk n change my lifestyle bo litat tai na men le!
haizzzzzzzzzz

2day i finally ve e guts 2 tell jy and 1st le!
i'm glad i did it!
but still feeling bad cos of bluffing them >.<
thanks god ..they dun blame me at all!
haiz...
den jy asked me whether baby noe ma..
i told her baby noe lor n she dun mind..
jy said maybe baby too young le so dun mind >.<

i asked baby..baby de reply was...
"i noe i 1 2 be with u now..i dun mind now but as in future
i dunno .." ):::
tt's really hurt me lor >.< my tears wanna roll out lor
haiz..i noe wat she means lor..
i act wat act la..act dao like damn da fang litat!
like na de qi fang de xia litat..
i told baby when it is x she wanna go jus let me noe,
i'll let her go lor..
wat a big lie ): i mean i'll die man ! i'll cry dao my eyeball
drop out!..but no choice ):
i can't expect her 2 stay by my side de..
eeeeeeeeeee
i dun wanna think bout it le..
wanna say i tao bi jiu tao bi!!!!
my heart jus can't bear it when i think of it >.<
nooooo i wan my baby 2 stay with me till e end!
baby use 2 say she'll stay with me till e end but y she nvr
say so le?
sadddddddddddd ):
wo jiu shi like 2 anyhow think la..
baby alr said she love me le lor but i still think she not loving
me tt much lor..
bam! my toopid idiot head n brain!!!!!!!!
stopppppppp being so emo le!!!
dun waste my x thinking rubbish..
i thought i told baby i'll cherish every moment with her ?!
yea..i mus find a way out of my rubbish mind now!
i go feed kukubaby le..
baby i love u alwayssssssssssss <3

2day i cut my index finger >.<>.<
i nid a break..i wanna screammmmmmmm
i gtg crazyyyyyy soon if my life carry on litat ):::::::
i wonder how i can stay here 4 more than 10yrs with some1 i dun like ...haizzzzzzz
how i wish i could turn back e clock!

oh ya they make her c tt toopid doc can >><<
damn i create all tis )X
baby i m so sorryyyyyyyy
if i control my feeling n din blogged it on my blog,
i guess u won't noe till now ):
i m so selfish !
i said i love u but wat i m doing rite now is hurting u..
i let u suffer so much >.<
u'll regret 1 day ..
everyx when i think bout we can't go out 2gether..
my heart 'll sink ...my heart 'll floodddd..
i dunno how long we can hang on ...
but i really hope tt we can hang on as long as we can..
nxt yr u'll be gtg 2 a diff sch so maybe ur pt of view n
thinking might change..
u'll get 2 noe more frens ..oh tt's gd 4 u..
jus let me noe when u're ready 2 let go..i'll respect ur decision!
c'ing u happy...make me happy too=]]
loving some1 is not keeping him/her by ur side..


i'm so emo ):

2day is our 13 mth anniversary!
i should be happy rite?
but i m not ):
y m i flooding soooo early in e morni???
wat's wrong with me ???
i dunno )X
i thought i said i dun mind?! i mind rite ???
i miss u ..
i feel ur love 4 me is not as strong as like lastx anymore ):
maybe i m wrong or maybe i m jus too sensitive..i wished i m!

i love 2 c ur tag..ur sms..ur email..ur ecard..ur post
i love 2 hear ur voice n c ur face!
i prefer 2 be in bintan u noe?
cos at least i can read email from u which from e words i can feel
how much u miss me!
now u no longer blog >.<>.<>.<
i found u! n i dun 1 tis 2 happen between us!
i love u ! i 1 2 spend e rest of my life jus loving u!
i noe is unfair 4 others but can't help..wo jiu shi ai ni yi gei!
i told u i'll let go when u re ready rite?
yes..i'll if u tell me de!
i noe it's really unfair 4 u!!! cos loving me like got no future ):
if i'm not marry maybe there's still 10% of chances of being 2gether
when u grow older but lots of thing change!
ur mind n thinking 'll change too and u'll scold urself being so toopid
when u look back e past nxt x!
i won't cos i noe wat i'm doing now..
u dun love me at all..u onli nid some1 2 tok 2..2 share..cos u're lonely!
and u met me..i took e position of being a 'gd fr' /'best fr' rite?
rite now ..as 4 me..u're my everything!
omg! my heart is so acheeeeeeeeeee!
how i wish i can jus zzzzzzzz n dun wk up anymore!
i hate tis feeling..i wan u 2 love me till e end !
can u?
please? ):